A man’s word is everything to me. If people don’t live up to their word, what do we have left to cling to in this life? To me, broken words and promises take away hope. I try to be a woman of my word. I’m human, I fail at times, but I try to say what I mean and mean what I say.
Forgiveness also brings to mind grace. Several years ago, while training on a job, I was nervous which caused me to make several typos. I kept apologizing. The woman training me turned to me and said “Jill, there is only grace here for you.” I don’t think I had ever been so moved in my life. I try to give that grace to others as it had a profound effect on me.
Raising two special needs children and working with special needs children, I observe forgiveness on a daily basis. I see the fire dim in their eyes when someone makes fun of them, loses their patience with them or worse yet, doesn’t take the time to get to know them. Society as a whole, is getting better about how they treat these special people but we are not yet where we need to be. The drive and stamina they have to keep forging ahead is such an inspiration to me. These children and adults continue to teach me so much and I have a very grateful heart.
I have recently been forgiven for something I did. It was a big mistake, on my part. A very hurtful thing. I felt I didn’t deserve to be forgiven. I’ve beat myself up for it daily. But the person I hurt, has forgiven me. I am in awe and grateful for my second chance with them. Forgiveness changes who we are and it inspires us to forgive others. I don’t know if I could have given me forgiveness. In fact, I’m still trying to forgive myself. It’s a process. Often, a long process.
As I began this, I started talking about a man and his word. I’ve had a promise that was made to me broken. I know there are often reasons to “justify” breaking a promise. I just don’t think it’s right. I can, however, offer my forgiveness to others. It’s a gift that I pray, keeps on giving.
Just think how nice it would be if everyone practiced a little forgiveness everyday…