This post is going to be messy.  My life is messy.  I know.  I could do this over a period of days but the topics are not worthy of an entire post.  So here goes.

First.  I had great news this morning!  My girl leaves the house for work at 6:50 a.m.  She called me at 8:15 a.m.  Usually a call from her while she is at work is not good news.  But today, it was wonderful!  For the second time in three years, she was selected as Employee of the Month!  WooHoo!  I am so proud of her!  She’s been going through a lot of growing up as her mom is making changes to our lives and the estrangement with her brother.  This tells me, more than anything, that she is adjusting very well to new people in our lives.  I am going to say it again, I am one PROUD MOMMA!

I mentioned last time that I had paperwork to fill out on behalf of the girl.  I’m going to modify paperwork to packets as one group is 10 pages (completed) and the other is 20 pages.  Both sets are medical in nature and to me, they are the worst!  She’s going to see a new psychiatrist.  She’s had many over the years.   I’m praying this is a good one.  We really need a good one.  The interesting note on this appointment is that it will be done over a television screen.  I’m not too sure how I feel about that but I’m keeping an open mind.

I wish I had good news about the boy but I do not.  I’ve written the county everyday with questions.  About 1 % have been answered.  I don’t understand the lack of caring from the county.  They were so supportive when we discovered the way my son is living and the brainwashing that is going on.  They have supported me for the last 29 years.  This is the first time they have let me down.  And it’s a biggie.  I’m trying to do all I can but, unfortunately, my hands are tied.

It was a good week at work.  It usually is.  I am so grateful for a job I love and students I adore.  I missed a lot of sleep this week but I managed to stay awake and I think alert!  Every now and then, I can’t turn my brain off and that’s what’s happening now.

I have a four day weekend.  I’ve had a lot of company on the weekends over the last few months but the house will be quiet this weekend.  I’m not sure how I feel about that.  Too much time to think.  Maybe, just maybe, I’ll get some projects done around here.  I’m also going to use this time to kick sugar (AGAIN).  I need to refocus on my weight loss. I feel so much better when I do.  I’ve settled at that darn sixty pound loss again and have slipped up with some emotional eating.  I’ve kept it in a 3 pound range but it feels like 50.  I’ll do it.  If you see me with sugar, I again, give you permission to slap it out of my hand!

Find something just for you this week-end.  You made it through another week.  Be good to yourself.

Shine On!



Author: jillymaddy

I'm a 50's something single mom of two special needs kids that I adore to the moon and back. This is my story of our highs and lows.

2 thoughts on “Messiness”

  1. i was expecting messiness, i did not view that as messy, just life!! congratulations to becky, what a beautiful honor for her. you are doing lot’s of things right!!!


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