There has been a lot going on regarding the boy, most of it is behind the scenes. I got to get an idea of what’s happening the other day. My children share the same county case manager. She has been wonderful. I hadn’t spoken to her in some time. She was at the girls potential group home with us the other day. As soon as she got out of the car, she looked at me and said “I’m so sorry.” My response was a question, “Sorry? Why are you sorry?” She responded “About everything.” As we said goodbye, I hugged her. She’s as upset as I am. She is going her best on our behave.
I understand a little more of what the county is doing. Do I appreciate the time frame they are doing it under? Of course not. I’m also disappointed to learn that the county employees that witnessed the emotional abuse are not being believed by their superiors. Therefore, all past evidence we have gathered, must be thrown out. The people I work with are now starting over and as they move forward, will document everything that transpires. There are people that will be visiting the home, hopefully, most “visits” will be impromptu. There are a few things they have asked me to do and to also document what happens. I’ll confess to feeling uncomfortable with the requests but I will comply with most of them. It seems very surreal that I am “afraid” to even call my own son, but I am. However, I am still not comfortable going to the home, with or without the county being with me. A very sexist remark on my part but I’d rather have a burly guy or two with me than other women. That’s just a reflection on how much I do not trust them.
There have been concerns raised regarding finances. I can’t give any more details on that at this time. Red flags just keep creeping up every time we turn around.
The county would also like me to obtain an attorney. I’m still refusing to. Not just because of the cost but more so because I have nothing to hide. They can spew any lies they would like at me and I will stand strong in the truth (ok, I might, nah, I will cry but it’s OK) but even more importantly, I am not going to fight the guardianship.
I’m on spring break this week. I always appreciate my school schedule as it gives me time to catch up on things. The girl has therapy two days this week and I have many calls and a meeting planned.
I’ll also try to get into the depths of the girls room to try to reduce the mass of collected items over that past 24 years. If you don’t hear from me, send help. There could be an avalanche!